Learning to move forward again after life takes a heartrending turn (or two, or three, or four) can be quite challenging...and no matter how strong the desire to move forward is, the strength to do so... much of the time, isn't quite there yet. It takes faith, baby steps, a robot button...and a bit of time.
The path can at times feel as if it is one continuous, never ending climb upwards, with shaking legs, a lack of breath, and stitch in your side...but you keep moving upward, and forward, knowing that eventually you *will* get to the top and be able to rest...if only to build up another batch of strength for the next climb ahead.
BTW - I must now always carry Miss. Ginger up the steps seen above, for at 15, she can no longer bound up them the way she used to...I don't mind though, as it offers the chance to sneak in a few extra cuddles and kisses with her, and those help tremendously on journeys such as these.
Moving forward can also sometimes feel that no matter how hard you try to head towards a state of normality, it seems as if you're just heading straight into a great big body of water, with the path completely lost to the watery emptiness of heart and soul.
But if by grace you chance to lift up your eyes, you see that there is help for getting across the seemingly uncrossable depths...a little detour is all that's needed, one that will set you upon those empty waters, and peacefully help you to continue the journey forward...this time in rest, and if your lucky, with corn dogs, because the snack bar will be open.
Once in a while the path forward is pretty wonky and steep, and also seems headed straight into the deep, watery depths of despair. Little do we see though the sharp curve at the end that will allow us to veer right and stay on course, another faith and trust filled detour that allows us to keep moving...if not forward, then sideways...which is better than backwards, and can lead one once again...to forwards.
Other times the path is straight and smooth, yet still seems headed nowhere...a bit stark and empty, with the horizon a long way off.
But then...as we continue venturing forward, all of a sudden beauty once again starts to materialize around us...beauty that was there all along, but wasn't visible to our somewhat dazed and melancholy eyes.
Even the winding paths, shrouded by lurking storm clouds, and teetering on cliffs edge....
Begin to offer a comforting, bright protection...making the unknown that lies around the bend, a bit less worrisome, and a bit more inviting...it just takes time, and those trusting, faith-filled baby steps.
As you can see...I have been a great collector of 'paths'. These images were all taken on walks with Miss. Ginger...my steady companion in baby-steps and moving forward. And whether she's leading, or I am, or we're both just walking side by side, it's nice to have a such a willing friend to walk these paths with, especially one that gives you no choice in the matter...what a blessing she's been during this journey!
And so have you dear friends, truly. ♥
Saturday, June 9, 2012
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19 comments:
My heart goes out to you. I can feel the heaviness in your heart. Wish I could do something that could help. I do like your collection of paths, and Miss Ginger is adorable.
Hello Jessica:
We are so very concerned for you and feel so very helpless all these thousands of miles away to offer help of any kind. But please be assured, dear Jessica, that you are very much in our thoughts and prayers and we are confident that you will be given the strength to come through these present difficulties which threaten to overwhelm.
You live in a most beautiful part of the country and clearly so close to the sea. We love the way you have so very carefully chosen your photographs to complement what you are saying here and to reflect your various thoughts and feelings at this time.
I have read this post several times and it gives me hope as I wait for that sharp bend in the path! Thank you!!
Beautiful, thought filled, tender, sad, hopeful post. Loved you helping Miss Ginger up the steps while she helps you with cuddles and being with you on your walks . . .
Hopefully the roller coaster ride will become quiet and there will soon be a smooth sail . . .
Although I don't know the reason for the difficult path you are on, please know you are in my thoughts. I am grateful you have such a wonderful, devoted companion. I know firsthand what comfort that brings. xoxo,
pamela, and edward too
This post should be re-posted all over the blog sphere. I love it. It is touching and inspirational and inspiring to me. I needed to read it tonight. Thank you. My prayers are for your loss and your yet another ill family member. May God give you the strength you need. God bless
Lisa
xoxoxoxoxox.
All shall be well.
Purple Flowers...You have done something to help...your kind words and caring heart have done wonders...thank you! xoxo
Jane & Lance...Being in your thoughts and prayers is such a comfort, really.I know you both have gone through tremendous challenges as well and your triumphs over them are a great inspiration to me. I know time will bring strength and as will the knowledge of friends such as you, despite the miles inbetween!
We do live near the sea in a way...Puget Sound is an enormous'inlet' of the sea...and backed by the Olympic mountains, is one of my favorite views in all the world...so thankful that I'm able to enjoy it daily, such a gift! xoxo
Jules...Bless your heart, hang in there, that sharp bend is there...I'll be praying that you find it soon, or that it finds you! xoxo
Lynne...Thank you for such sweet and beautiful description of this post. Miss. Ginger helps me so much, it's the least I can do for her so she can still enjoy our walks...she's carried more than not now.
Here's to smooth sailing...xoxo
Pamela...Thank you, I know what a comfort Edward has been to you, we are so blessed to have them in so near and dear, aren't we?! Sometimes I think they're angels in disguise...or maybe just little animal angels, I don't know, but they're such blessings.
Please give Edward a scratch or pat from me...whichever he likes best. xoxo
Lee...You are such a sweetheart to say that, and I'm honored that you found it inspiring, that makes the writing of it all the more special, thank you so much, for your kind words, and your prayers...I'm cherishing them! BLessings to you...xoxo
LPC...I took a big sigh when I read your comment, it helped me to breath again, thank you. xoxo
Such a wonderful part of the planet to grow whole again. Keeping this post on my desktop. Terrific...
Jane...Yes it is, my surroundings constantly amaze me with their healing abilities, my jaw drops on a daily basis!
I'm trulyu honored that you putting the post on your desk top, thank you! xoxo
Hello Jessica
Miss Ginger is a beauty and still walks with such enthusiasm. I am keeping you in prayer Jessica.
The images and words describe this trying time for you. Please continue walking,praying, believing,hoping and cuddling Miss Ginger.
In fondness
Helenxxx
Helen...You are so right, Ginger *does* walk with enthusiasm, that's such a perfect description, and she also walks with purpose and a prance towards the treat drawer once the actual walking is over, that's my favorite walk of hers...well that and her little gallop when she's on grass...that's probably the best one!
Your prayers mean so much Helen...thank you, and I will continue to do all of the above, all while cuddling Miss. Ging!
xoxo
J.-
From seeing these vistas through your eyes, reading your beautiful words, and knowing you have your little four-legged companion--I know you will be fine. You are a person, I think, who sees the glass half full, as you walk down your paths. <3
PS I, too, have a ginger (the same color, about the same age, only one-eyed and a bit bigger).
Oh Elizabeth...you have a one eyed ginger, my goodness, how special, aren't they the best?! Ginger's back legs are starting to give out but she doesn't seem to care one little bit, and I'm sure your little sausage doesn't mind seeing through one lens either...it's so motivating in the carrying and moving forward department.
Thank you for the uplifting words too...I hope I am more full than empty...our drinking glasses actually say 'Optimista/Pessimista, they're a daily reminder to live optimistically, the other way isn't very much fun, but it is quite a challenge sometimes!
I wonder if you recognize any of the hometown views...don't you just love where we live?!
xo J~
One of the wonderful things about being strong is that you only have to be strong one day at a time. Your tender, uplifting accounts of Miss Ginger are heartwarming. Best of luck as you step toward the future.
Sarajan...Thank you for such a warm and caring comment...yes, one day at a time, even one minute at a time, which is quite doable...thank you for reminding me of that. xoxo
Jessica, I apologize for my absence. It has been months and months since I've been social in the blogosphere for obvious reasons.
Interesting...spell check says there's no such word as blogosphere... they suggest instead "atmospheric".
Well, how a propos, because that is what your soulful posts are all about. You let your soul hang out there in beautiful poetic and prosaic fashion. That's why I always come back to read eventually...and connect
Thank you for being real.
xoxo
Liz
Jessica...I wish I could fly over you and sprinkle soft and comforting fairy dust all around you and your lovely little Ginger. My heart grows so heavy reading your words and knowing the kind spirit that shines through your blog is heavy with grief and the burden of it. I know our time will come to walk this path that you are now on and if nothing else...your words will help each one of us who is reading to be better prepared for what is to come and to have hope that light will shine in those lovely eyes again. Keep going...you can do it.
Liz...So gald you 'connected'! I feel the need to apologize for being abscent myself, I think of your 'request' of me a lot and have been wanting to email you, so thank you for making the first move! I'm attempting to stay in the loop here, it's tricky, but hopefully soon I'll be back in the swing of things and more focused on the house, and not so much melancholia...things are a changin around here finally.
Your comment is filled with such an 'atmospheric' dose of sweetness and it gave me a delightful smile, thank you...and I'll be in touch, it was really nice to 'hear your voice'! xoxo
Sarah...My goodness, your comment was like an enormous hug, thank you so much! Brightness is starting to show up more and more on my walks and in my heart...and hopefully will be showing up again soon here at 24C...and with comments such as these bringing such comfort and encouragement, it can't be too far off...oh yes, and cooking helps too ;)! xoxo
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